Everything I Never Told You
To my dear mom and dad,
Please don’t worry about me.
The spring is coming. The spring is always coming.
And thank you for not giving up on me.
Your daughter,
Zhuoning
I live in the negatives, sometimes around the core of the earth, sometimes 30,000 feet below sea level.
This is starting to sound too depressing. Let me put it in a different way: I am alive. Though sometimes I’m forced to walk under the sun that never sets, and sometimes I have to battle underwater with monsters that want me to drown to death. I am still alive. And sometimes I even dance.
Now do you understand how my life feels like?
You still don’t get it? It’s all right. You don’t have to. This work is dedicated to my parents who have been trying to understand their little girl since she was born. It’s my apology for everything I have put them through, and for forgetting how much it hurts them to watch me suffering at the bottom of those watery trenches. Hopefully, it will explain myself a little and ease their pain a little.
